FORWARD 

If we allow the mind to dwell on the past, or future-  we’ll miss the experience and the joy of being in the NOW-  the only reality that there is.

     Many of us are on the spiritual quest of enlightenment. Yes, we are evolving to higher dimensions and this is being written about extensively by knowledgeable people all over the planet.  People (I might add), who are much more knowledgeable than myself. 

     So why would I ever write a book about spiritual evolvement?  Well, like it says on the front cover- this is a personal journey.  With experience being the best teacher, I am qualified  to tell you about my journey thus far, which has brought me to a new level of understanding about not only myself, but also of those all around me, life in general and the healing power of the body. This new understanding has been the result of a multitude of circumstances, which occurred over of many years, many lifetimes- and culminated recently as I gained a new awareness within myself of my connection to Divinity. 

     You see, I believe that we each came here to learn certain lessons - that’s why I call this - EARTH SCHOOL.  I believe that we came here (this time around) to work out some particular karma from a previous life.  I believe that we picked the exact parents and the exact place of birth to work on these very important lessons.

Going into the stillness of no-thingness will open many doors of infinite possibilities.  Patience with yourself is required- lots and lots of patience- accepting, surrendering and being grateful.

     If you’re at a place in your life where everything has fallen apart- a place where things have happened that all appear to be bad, wrong, or painful, with no end in sight- no way out- no happiness, joy or pleasure:  Count it all good!  For it just might be that this is the exact place that you need to be in order to finally begin to ‘let go’- to surrender, to begin your healing Journey IN.

Dark Night of the Soul

     Knowing that everything comes to me exactly as I need it to, for the exact lesson that I need to learn- I have accepted that what I experienced in the year 2003, was a big blessing.  It’s what lots of people call- A Dark Night of the Soul.

     But, it didn’t feel like a blessing - it felt like death, or more like hell!  From beginning to end, it lasted 9 months.  The biggest lesson it taught me (looking back), was to surrender- hit my knees, cry out for help from the God of my understanding and accept that I was lost.

All that is gold does not glitter. Not all those who wander are lost. The old that is strong does not wither, deep roots are not reached by the frost. From the ashes a fire shall be woken, a light from the shadows shall spring - re-newed shall be blade that was broken, the crownless again shall be king. 

~  J.R.R. Tolkien  

     I left my house - sold, or gave away most of my belongings and hauled the remaining items to a storage unit, in my little old pickup truck. I went to stay with my friend up in the mountains of Markleysburg, PA.  The move took a very long time and all of the happenings while there, are just too numerous to recount.  I was at this friend’s house from September until December 9, 2003- the long-range plan did not manifest.   

     All during this time, I had constant nausea, headaches and couldn’t think straight. To get a glimpse at myself in a mirror was terrifying. My physical condition had deteriorated to such a point that I even scared myself!  I had lost 60 pounds in 6 months, my skin was gray and there was a look of horror and destitute in my eyes (Pictures of me before, during and after - you would never even know that it was the same person.)  I left on December 9, 2003, the night of the full moon.

I have come to understand that -

The purpose of the mind (ego)-  

Is to maintain a separateness between the soul (Divinity) and all the other parts of this human beingness. This separateness is what keeps us functioning in a 3rd dimensional, human existence of discontent, fear, disagreement, greed, power, war and suffering. I believe that we came here to be made fully aware of our separateness from Divinity- God, and then to learn how to transcend that separateness. Reaching a state of awareness opens the door just a crack, so that we can begin to learn how to bridge the gap of separateness (soul, body, mind) and become one with this Divine Power - which lives within the body.

     What do you suppose would happen if we could by-pass the judging-condemning mind and access (be with) that peaceful, healing Divine energy (the Soul), which lives within each of our 100 trillion cells (of the body)?  Do you suppose we’d ascend to a higher level of being? Perhaps even learn how to ALLOW this Divine energy to heal our body?

     I believe the above is possible and it can begin by letting go of judgments and condemnations. The mind is so fast! First there’s the thought and then there’s the judgment! Always following the judgment is the condemnation -

 1 - Thought  

2 - Judgment  

3 - Condemnation

Nothing could be more normal than an unwillingness to suffer. Yet, if you can let go of that unwillingness and instead ALLOW the pain to be there - you may notice a subtle inner separation from the pain - a space between you and the pain. When you suffer consciously, physical pain can quickly ‘burn up the ego’, since ego consists largely of  ‘resistance’. Chronic pain is one of the harshest teachers you can have. ‘Resistance is futile’, is its lesson.

~ Eckhart Tolle (Stillness Speaks, page 126)

     This spiritual energy that lives in the body, has an Innate Wisdom, far beyond anything that modern science has thus far been able to tap into (And I, personally think that‘s a good thing!). This loving, powerful energy wants only the best for us. But, It has no way of communicating, except through body signals - pain, discomfort or dis-ease.

     And so what do we do when It tries to get our attention?  Well (sad to say), most people run to a medical doctor for ‘help’. Some run to their local Health Food store for a ‘natural’ formula, or to a Chiropractor, a massage therapist, a Reiki person, an energy healer, etc.  Yes, off they run to find a cure outside of the body. Off they run somewhere, to someone who they think can fix them. And- they spend lots of money on these outside, quick fixes too!

‘The years of searching in the dark for a truth that one feels, but cannot express- the intense desire, alternations of confidence and misgiving-  until one finally breaks through to clarity and understanding- are only known to him who has himself experienced them.’

~ Albert Einstein